tonight, i felt really happy. happy from the inside out. Let Go. Let God really brings peace. with Peace, you feel the Joy. really.
Thank God i went for CF.. wanted to skip because i felt tired. We watch facing the giants during CF today.
and these 2 parts in this video is that God uses to touch my heart =)
1st the the part where Tylor prayed in times of need.
"I love you O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress, my deliverer, my God in whom I trust, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold; I will call upon the Lord who is worthy to be praised. So shall I be saved from my enemies. Lord Jesus would you help me? I need you. Lord, I feel like there's giants of fear and failure just staring at me waiting to crush me. And I don't know how to beat'em Lord. I'm tired of being afraid. Lord if you want me to do something else, show me. If you don't want me to have children, so be it. But you're my guide. You're on the throne. You can have my hopes and dreams. Lord give me something, show me something."
FYI: Tylor can't have kids
Later he asked his wife, "If the Lord never gives us children, will you still love him?"
In times of need, when I felt lost, i prayed for His guidance. But there isn't any ans... and i also asked myself will I still love Him when i'm in times of trouble.
the 2nd part i want to share is when Mr Bridges told Tylor this verse: Revelation 3:7b-8 (NIV) "What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name."
then later...
am i ready for the rain?
Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 11:55 PM
WELCOME HOME YVONNE!!
yay went T3 to pick von =)))) so long no see!! it's good to see u back!!
we shall go out soon!!!!!! ahahahha love love!
Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 12:49 AM
my friends were commenting about Dark Knight today, saying that Batman very sad, He's a hero, a good hero that made alot of sacrifices yet being mistaken for being the bad guy...
Besides batman, there's someone else who did the same. His name is Jesus... don't you think so?
yesterday i'm watching this hokkien version of Jesus film.. (it's quite funny seeing Jesus speaking hokkien LOL! i couldn't stop laughing hahahahha!) Jesus did alot for mankind. He heals, he feed, he comfort, he teach etc. but still he's being mistaken and died for all of our sins.
The bible says, "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." - John 15:13
but will you... die for someone who sinned badly? or someone that don't worth dying for?
I BET YOU WON'T but.. He did.
isn't that even greater love? do you want that love??
God's love says, " Even if you are so way off the track, you still matters to me... "
your choice.
@ 12:42 AM
i'm thankful for having friends.
great friends!
to encourage me, to help me in times of busy-ness, to support me, to tell me that i'm not alone and never be alone, to pray for me, to teach me, to ask me to do a self-check and rest well...
i'm really touched =) thank you all... my friends!
xoxo.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 11:52 PM
i went to watch DARK KNIGHT together with Hui Ru and Huan Ying today =) it's nice lah!! quite sad oso.. dunno why people can fall asleep while watching or say that this movie is not nice!
Compare Batman with superman, spiderman etc i think Batman is the best! because He do not have superpowers and that made Him the best superhero!
This movie is pretty good and Heath Ledger(the joker) acts better than the main cast lor! good thing that he acted very well in his last movie.
Maybe we can believe in something human, yet driven, that can battle our darkest fears and right wrongs and instill justice
Sunday, July 20, 2008 @ 10:10 PM
Happy Birthday Ah Ma!
today during DG, we're suppose to praise each other. and Aiping said " 你长大了!"
it's time to grow up. no more room for being childish. I really thank God that i'm mature now.
no more pocket money. i got to pay my own phone bills, i got to learn how to really save my money and next year im going to work.
really, 长大了!
gosh, can't believe it.
Saturday, July 19, 2008 @ 10:51 PM
CAC Connect Echo is fun =) really missed the people i know. on top of that i made more new friends today too ^^
Germaine say i look very tired... well.. actually im just a little bit tired
=\
i need to put on mask le~ LOL.. if not i'll look older eee!
@ 12:27 AM
Purely just for fun, i joined HS IDOL. it's an annual event in HS during nurses' day. Had my audition today
and i got in!
Thank God im in, so my friends can start to have some fun during their last month in school after which is our attachment that's y agreed and join HS Idol, so school life will be memorable =)
So friends, i'm IN the finals... just have fun k!! prophylactics for Final Exams and Attachments.
de-stress always come first! hahaha!
indulge in Hong Kong dramamamas... so shiok!
Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 1:12 AM
神关起一扇门, 他必开一条新的路
不疑惑,不软弱,我心仍要赞美
赏赐的在于你, 收取的你必代替
神旨意不能拦阻,我心仍要赞美
凡事信靠主,不失去盼望
因为我的主仍然在掌权。
他必在沙漠开江河,在旷野开道路
虽四面受敌, 却不被困住
我要在沙漠中赞美,在旷野中宣告
我的主永远掌权。
attended stream of praise worship session @ cornerstone church today together with lena and jess
worship is great.. superb!
i really enjoyed alot=)
Supper was yummss @ 24hrs old hongkong cafe
thanks jess for the treat!
bus ride back was fun too!
we're talking about diving and stuffs
hahahaa
i reallyed enjoyed my night today..
oops i mean yesterday
@ 1:08 AM
Jesus Loves You
Sunday, July 13, 2008 @ 11:54 PM
I'm a blessed child of God
Amen.
Friday, July 11, 2008 @ 8:48 PM
went jogging during my break time in school today with huanying and aishah =)
NAPFA coming soon! urgh. tested myself today and i ran about 14mins for 6 rounds on the blue track.
just hope that my standing board jump will not let me get an F =\
Thursday, July 10, 2008 @ 11:39 PM
"Let choirs sing well or not at all.
Otherwise we merely confirm the majority in their conviction that the world of business,
which does with such efficiency so much that never really needed doing,
is the real, the adult, and the practical world;
and that all this culture and religion (horrid words both)
are essentially marginal, amateurish, and rather effeminate activities."
-C.S Lewis
Here “choirs” is probably just an example of a serving.
Substitute it for worship team, for 1735, for Sunday school teachers, etc ,
And the bottom line is : the spirit of excellence and purpose.
If ,for the purposes of profits and brand name, the business people can do so much with such vigour, and want so much to improve in their products and the way they do things,
shall we not do so for the purposes of God's kingdom, His people and love.
Above is an email i received from Dun Lin...
and i find it encouraging for me.. as it reminds me of the purpose of serving.
I'm not tired of serving, nor am i stressed up in serving..
Things may go haywire, but i know that God is guiding me along..
and if i continue to hold on to this purpose of serving, that is of God's Kingdom, people and love,
There's a way out.
that's what i strongly believe in
esp serving Him for so long and tasted His grace.
=)
so friends out there...
i'm not stressed up nor tired in serving God
though i may look super tired cuz im physically tired LOL..
Wednesday, July 09, 2008 @ 10:10 PM
suefern say that im stressing myself too much. a lot of my friends said that im hardworking.. but... i'm not.
today... - i self declare school end early. meaning i pon my WPD lecture. - im suppose to read my N no. of articles and do my drug discovery assignment but i procrastinate. *shucks* and was watching tv. - i didnt pay attention to tutorial today, i was reading this magazine that's talking about research study of HIV/AIDs awareness in Singapore.
urgh! this sucks... i looked at my schedule there's alot of things not yet done. 1. My drug discovery and development (DDD) assignment which due next friday and what huanying said, "what the hell do I want to study all these when the chances of using is -zero." LOOK.. NEGATIVE ZERO. i agree to it totally.. if not for the % i think i'll just anyhow do and hand it up..
2. my research project literature review about COPD + full report. 3. Nursing Management Role-Play about Falls. 4. Work professional and development group assignment draft about organisation conflict. 5. on top of all these, i need to mug on my practical and my nursing science 5 which worth credits of EIGHT and FIVE respectively.
seriously speaking.. i got no idea how my lecturers want us to excel in studies when they give us so many redundant assignments to do when final exams is coming in 5 weeks time...
Especially in Year 3, i realised that my school is too ambitious. - First Nursing Diploma in Singapore that can be accepted into Medicine (come on. to study medicine u need to get very very good results.. how to get good results when we got so many redundant stuffs to study unless that person is a freak who mugs day in day out or someone who is so blessed with intelligence but the probabilty for that person to study nursing is like less then 1/2 because he/she will go study As and get into medicine!) - A Diploma that allows you to get into science courses in NUS, NTU - First Nursing School in Singapore that uses PDA (and the PDA is rotting at everyone's home and it sucks! always tio hang!) - First Nursing School that have life science electives (i don't mind having it in year 1 or year 2..like mircobiology and cell & molecular biology but definately not year 3.. it's a waste of time! NEVER CHOOSE DRUG DISCOVERY AND DEVELOPMENT! unless u can get perfect grades and enter a pharmaceutical and discovery new drugs. ) - First Nursing School in Singapore that teaches you how to do research and take part in a research project.
on second thoughts, im actually fine about studying more modules because it shows that im more knowledgable.
but the only thing im VERY UNHAPPY with my school is the FORCING US TO BUY PDA.. it's okay if the software can be used lifetime... but my software only last for 2 years. meaning after 2 years, this PDA is totally useless and the reason is to prevent us from selling the PDA within our course period. if this PDA is a Handphone PDA, i won't mind buying it... my lecturer say that it is because if next time we work in ICU we can't use phone.. so we can't use the PDA.
come on lah. everyone knows that we can't have attachment in ICU and only NUH allows new grads in ICU.. the rest have to go to normal wards first.. worst still the PDA software only last us for 2 years.. meaning next year it will be expired. And.. if we use PDA when we start working.. what will other nurses think about you?
im going to sell my PDA next year when i graduate.. anybody wants? FOR SURE I KNOW NOBODY WANTS! esp when IPHONE is out and it's hella cheaper than my PDA
okay. i'm done venting out. im going to read my articles now gotta finish it by hook by crook today.. i deserve it for procrastinating.
attended 1735's retreat yesterday and i really gain alot from it. it ensures my faith, that i'm not shaken by 'facts' that proven Christianity wrong! because ultimately, faith is not built on scientific facts, my faith is built on God's love and grace. we also touches about evangelising.. and it's all about the great commission that is to love one another as God loves us, so that people will know that we're His disciples. Not to argue about who's right and who's wrong though at times we forgot about it because it's our human nature.
during this whole retreat and during alpha camp mtg, i felt a burden to serve for next year. Evangelism. however it's not to evangelise to people who do not know christ. it's people who know christ and refused or backslided. to spend my time not for God's event, but for God's people. images have been appearing in my mind during the retreat and mtg people whom i've spread the gospel to, who refused to accept because they are not convinced by some christians who portrayed bad testimony. also,those who once accepted the truth yet backslided due to very very poor follow-up or loss of sense of belonging in church or even in my CF.
i've lost alot of them because i didn't spend time with them, to share about their faith and support them. pray that i'll hold on to my new year's resolution which is to build strong relationships with my fellow churchmates and CFers.
@ 11:43 PM
i had my very first blood donation today =)
and it's really serious NOT PAINFUL.
give blood.save lives.
Thursday, July 03, 2008 @ 9:28 PM
I'm busy with this drug's 10pg review these days.
urgh!
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 @ 11:22 PM
wenya asked me to read kaijing's blog and i realised that she wishes me happy birthday on her blog im so touched... my CO senior still remembers my birthday =) then i saw lily and junhui's photo aww i really miss my friends way back in secondary school days. Siew ting too =\
hoho.. wenya must be having a nice time with her new laptop today. shiok hor wenya. LOL
His Word ♥
Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.