Whoa! My ward is really busy busy busy!
so different from ward 5 and 11
im doing PM shift today..
and normally PM shift should be much more relaxed
but it's totally different in my ward
it looked like AM shift
busy.. busyy.. busy...

good thing i work as Junior today
still managed to get 1/2 hr break
but tmr i'm gonna take cases already..
whoa!

3 days of orientation in AH...
tmr's last day
gonna have pharm quiz with 60 MCQs =\

i met my preceptor already!
she seems nice ^^

gotta read up 42623419785 protocols in AH
and gotta sign all my 128 skills
plus being about to handle
3 cases by next week,
6 cases by 5th week
9 cases by 8th week
and 12 cases by 11th week.

quite excited!
gonna start work on Friday!


ohoh! pray for me!!
i've asked for Day Off on the 19th-20th
and saw that my preceptor request for Night 15th-18th
hopefully i can get night with my preceptor!
so i can go for alpha camp!!!

Last Day of Holiday...
my PRCP officially start tmr!

gonna be tough i guess..
esp after listening so some things happened to my friends during PRCP.

i enjoyed today alot!
went market with von, guzhang and my mum to grab some stuffs for BBQ
then prepare the food at ah ma hse
helped vina paint her school work
help von dye her hair black

BBQ with 1 firestarter
lots of hard work done...
xiao jim fanned so hard for it to burn
we also danced around the bbq pit hoping that the fire will become bigger
hahah lots of fun
but not many photos.. cuz we're quite busy hahah!

after BBQ something happened again
that made us laugh madly..
i became tipsy but our lao da became drunk.
so funny!

i really thank God for this day,
and i really treasure alot.
next event coming up in my family is my Gong Gong's birthday
but i dunno if i can make it =\
hopefully! =))

im sooo eggcited!!
proposed BBQ tmr at ah ma's hse
and everyone supported!!
yay!! BBQ TMR!!

going over to von's hse later
for a sleepover ^^
gonna test yveline on physics
and watch movies!!

so much of fun, laughter and closeness!
i really Thank God for that!

thanks cell for listening to my rants and whines!
i've learnt a precious and important lesson
thanks for everything =)

had a 5mins walk home from hillview bustop
and thought of all my whinings and rantings during cell..

i'm perfectly fine. just that i need to whine a bit
and i guess most importantly
i need a nod or many nods and encouragement from people
in order not to become demoralised.
i need recognition i guess.

oh well...
to my future boyfriend,husband or whoever close ones
be patient to my whines and rants.
i'll always repeat it.
WAHAHAHAHA!

accompanied ah ma to Gleneagles today for check up
spent 4 hours there =\
she did a X-ray on her right foot because there's edema
good thing that there's no fracture..
only mild sclerosis on the little toe

My new hair color! LOL brownish black.
my reason for dyeing because,
i'm going to have my PRCP soon..
should give clean neat look ^^

and gong gong ah ma say i look prettier ^^

so crazily fun!

my friends all having their PRCP already
mine start next tues =\
nervous.. nervous..
i left 5 days of holiday
gotta pray for courage and gather them together
so that i'll have confidence in performing certain skills

gosh.. excited yet nervous
o.O

i love the parable of the lost son in the book of Luke
Fuji shared with us during CF today
i always learn new stuffs from this parable
that doesn't have an ending.

i've played both roles before,
being the older son and the younger one as well
it's always a struggle
and thanks God i've learnt to cope with it

what GanShi said today is quite true
Knowing God is not by understanding but applying as well.
i always say "i know, i know, i know"
but if we don't apply it, there's no point knowing.

you know how to care, but do you care?
you know that love is importatnt, but do you love?
you got the knowledge in your brain, but do you use it?
you know the truth, but do you apply it?




i'm holding on... but did i give out my hand?

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 6:21

but where's my heart?
what's my treasure?

hmm...
today's 1735 we talked about christians in the world.

to fight?
to accept?
to enjoy?
to change?

Refiner’s Fire
My heart’s one desire is to be holy
Set apart for You Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You my master
Ready to do Your will

as a christian,
no matter what we do,
be holy.

just came back from the hospital..
ah ma getting better already =)

had 1 pint blood transfusion
and MRI stroke screen.

Dr gonna let us noe the results tmr
hopefully everything is fine
so she can be discharged!

and i can go sentosa with my NP clique ^^

Ah ma got admitted today...
cuz she's totally confused.

slping over @ the hosp tonight =)

Father, im willing to quieten down,
to hear your voice of truth
and to obey you.

To lay down my pride and ego,
to let you take charge of the whole thing
and do it in your way
and to have faith in you
even when i feel that you're not helping
but i know you're just beside me.

i'm terrible, i know.
purify my heart Lord,
and cleanse me from deep within.
and give me the strength and courage work in your ways.

In Jesus's name i prayed,
Amen.


Final match of the battle of my Spiritual Warfare X - Round ONE.

taking care of my grandparents really need alot of patience and tolerance.

my ah ma wants to eat her night medications @ 4:20PM.
gosh. that's afternoon!
but convinced her.. so she didn't take..
then at about 5pm,
she wants to take her anti-hypertensive medication.
just nice her medication box dun have so i replenish for her.
then she took 1 hypertension tab from one set,
then 3 more same medication but different set
and i told her it's the same.. i told her that's 4 white tabs..
and ask if she's supposed to eat the yellow ones
but i'm not very sure about her medications.. cuz seldom take care of her.
then she just say yes..in a angry manner,
my gong gong oso ask her to check properly...
in the end kena scolded..
and so she popped 4 anti-hypertensive med.

and seriously i'm pissed..
and i hope that her bp goes down and she will feel dizzy
(i know i'm mean)
but in that way then she will understand that she's not the doctor..
she cannot anyhow take medications.

but @ 7 plus when my uncle took her bp,
it was high.
so... lesson not learnt.

but she's running a fever now
and she's slow in speech.

gosh. pray for her...

Now at ah ma hse, taking care of my 2 old lovely folks.
and this afternoon, my ah ma hse's garden became a mini zoo,
there's blackie, there's a rooster, and now there's 2 monkeys.
gosh... -.-"
there's FOUR!

talking about animals,
singapore adapted the maggot therapy
and ttsh is having their trial now..

http://www.medifly.com.sg/flash/video/index.html

interesting yea..
oh boy, i want to be a wound nurse too!

ah ma is back from hospital!
still weak but she's alright =D

this week has been a great week.
got closer to my ah ma and gong gong..
and they are really cute lah! hahaha
love them lots!

problems seem drifting away without even solving it.
what are the solutions?
i've accept the fact? or have i not?
am i still dwelling about that hurt or i've already let it go?
my mind is empty right now, totally BLANK.

pray?
but i dunno what to pray.


the only sentence appearing in my head is
different people have different threshold of emotional hurt and pain.
mine's weak.

like jianyang always said
I'm Weak.
=\

whatever it is,
i just hope that one day, on my death bed, i can say this verse with confidence.
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
-2 Timothy 4:7

this is suppose to be a Thursday post (9-10-08)

spent half a day sleeping and half a day doing alpha camp stuffs
shiok ah!

gonna go down to gleneagles tmr again..
8am or even earlier i guess
and gonna stay there the whole day again
cuz im the only free person..

objectives for tmr:
-i shall complete my Jodi Pocult's My sister keeper
and Josh Mcdowell's The secret of loving
-teach ah ma how to use the call bell, train her..and try to convince my uncles and aunties
that we do not need to have someone with her tmr night. because if there's someone with her
she won't be sleeping well too!

time given: est 10hours.

latest update on my ahma:
Dr say lack of blood and sodium = lack of O2 that's y there's CO2 stuck in abdo.
and finally my ah ma say she wants to eat herbal stuffs and drink chicken essence.
(everytime cook for her she don't want)
discharge on sat!

Today's weather is perfect.
no big sun nor dark clouds
it's just nice and cool.

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

Father, thank you.
please be patient with me
while i'm make my way through the narrow road.

The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack
and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom.
To him be glory for ever and ever.
Amen.
-2 Timothy 4:18

That mixed feelings...

gotta learn to forgive
myself.
and others too.


and in psychology i learnt that
if other people experiencing the same thing,
u'll find comfort because it's a "normal" thing
and it's alright.


so i'm probably alright too! =)

Kaili got slapped by patient yesterday
and that same patient spit food on her too.

Damn Suay.


Today is my last day for my sem 3.2 attachment
after that i'll have 3 weeks break
and then the actual posting PRCP will start..
together with my special postings the ER and OT.

gotta plan by holidays well..
must play hard and work hard!

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific
and You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again

'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.



He said, “Surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age”
- Matthew 28:20

Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.

Micah 7:18 (NIV)
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