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Saturday, November 29, 2008 @ 10:58 PM

talked about relationships during cell today
hahaha..

and during work, with certain friends
they will ask me about
hey, am i attached?
hey you got boyfriend?
oh eh.. boyfriend ar?
=S

seriously speaking
i've nv been into a relationship before!
and looking @ so many pregnant ladies in my ward,
looking at so many of my staff nurses getting married,
so blissful
i really feel like getting into a relationship
BUT OF CUZ..
i need to find my mr right first
MUHAHAHA.

i'm not those anyhow kind lor
or feeling there then come on!

=S

Father, you know my problems, you know my needs...
lead me as you know best!

Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 8:28 PM

gabby bought a new phone today!

LG KU990R

Went to meet HuiRu, Shuting and Sharon after work today
cuz we want to help Sharon with her PRCP..
not coping well

to my friends out there having PRCP
JIA YOU k!
i noe it's quite tough, but try to learn as much as possible and correct our mistakes
when we're still students...
once we're registered, it'll be too late to make mistakes already

AJA FIGHTING!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 7:57 PM

WED OFF DAY

breakfast with enli + juin @ subway
prac prayer day songs
go buy prayer day stuffs

now waiting for enli to come online and send me my vid
so i can complete my alpha camp vid =))

yay! i'm proud of my alpha camp vid!
lots of effort effort effort!

thanks reuben and nathan for helping!

Monday, November 24, 2008 @ 11:59 PM

monday blues part 2

but it's more of heng ah... kind of good news =)

finally took care of 6 patients!
able to finish everything within time frame
plus feeding, off cath, blood transfusion, 2 discharges, 1 dressing
(time consuming activites)
just that quite messy ah.. haha

next i kena needle stick injury
by yellow needle which is the 18G one i think
but lucky it's a new needle

lastly, my patient is not a positive TB patient!
gosh the dr suspect she's having TB
i was.. wah sianned..
i've nursed her since 1st week
without any precautions..
TB is airborne.

thank God for protecting me =)

@ 7:54 PM

Monday blues

the day didn't start off well..
when im at the nursing counter this morning,
the first thing i heard was

"Bed 38 is unresponsive!"

then all of us were like
"SHIT."

activated the code blue team,
wheeled the crash cart to the bedside,
started commencing CPR
pushing adrenalines, atropines etc
trying to save the patient

and there i was, standing at one corner of the curtain walls,
looking at the collapsed patient,
looking at the MOs and nurses resus-ing the patient.
it was terrible
the whole code blue procedure was quite a mess

how can the MO just stand on the ground,
doing CPR with elbows not locked and without the chest board at the back?
they are suppose to climb the bed and give a proper CPR
why do the nurse take ECG machine and taking patient's blood sugar level?

in the end,
the patient was still certified dead.

this is the first time i faced a code blue.
2nd time seeing a patient died infront of me
=(

remember the hospital myth i've shared?
this is the 3rd coroner's case.

spooky isn't it?
haha..

nway, i've got this patient under my care
was quite drowsy, sleepy
but because of the morning incident
i keep waking my patient up
haha afraid that she may collapse too =\

i guess my patient hates me for waking her up ALL THE TIME.

Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 12:04 AM

i finally like noe how to play munchkins!
it's really fun!! just that have to really allies with people and backstab others.
played alot of board games with my churchies today
monopoly, saboteur, munchkins and divdends
haha really fun =)
GG.

Yesterday was alpha camp prayer meeting
and i went..

i just want to go there, pray and then leave..
however when i was praying for alphacamp

i teared and hate myself for being such an ass..
for having thoughts of isolating myself,
self pity myself, allowing satan to attack me.
it sucks really.

then when we're singing the song fan shi dou neng zuo,
it reminded me of faith.
having the faith, believing that God's love and grace will make all things possible.
so in the end i didn't walk away after the prayer mtg,
instead i went front to look for enli, yujuin
then later we went supper together with the rest.
and i actually felt weird.

today after breakfast with my inner circle of friends,
i went to church.
read 'the secret of loving- josh mcdowell' on the chapter of forgiveness
and it says

if you are an unforgiving person, you cannot develop intimate
relationships - it will torn apart by unforgotten conflicts because they are
unforgiven. Futher, if you are unforgiving, loneliness is inevitable for you,
because people will hesitate to be vulnerable when you are around. You will have
to build barriers around yourself.

i was an unforgiving person.

and with that, loneliness sets in and barriers was built.

and when i refuse to forgive, I am burning the bridge that someday I will need to pass over.

now, i've forgive myself, because forgiving myself wasn't dependent upon something i had to do but upon Christ had already done for me on the cross, moreover it is dishonouring God if i did not forgive myself. Because when i've seek God's forgiveness and yet still on the guilt trip,

it means that Jesus died on the cross wasn't sufficient for all my sins.

and you may be thinking, y must i forgive myself?
it's other's fault, it's others hurt you, it's others blah blah blah
well, i've come to understand that forgiveness is expression of love
if i forgive myself, i can love.
and if i can love my family and friends
will hatred, hurts, disappointment sets in?

This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. - 1 John 4:10

i'll miss these good days =)
i'll love my church.

Thursday, November 20, 2008 @ 12:17 AM

week 5 of my attachment
i'm still taking 3 cases
because i need to share with NYP girl who's having her week 3 only

my friends all taking 1 whole cubicle already
i really need to take 1 cubicle so i'll at least know how much i can cope.
i really dunno where's my limits.

=(

this week wasn't a good week for me.
there's many things i want to do but i can't
and i really think that..
true enough, life isn't fair.

也许确实也受过言语打击
也许从来也没什么好际遇
千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽?

曾难过曾失落微笑一下就过
不自卑不埋怨就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼

时刻都善良待人 (let's move on, let's move on)
时刻都做好本分 (let's move on, let's move on)
有些人心思浅薄绝不是宽容自暴自弃的理由
也许想说的话总埋在心底
也许想要的爱可望而不可及
竭尽全力争取
幸福会看到你

一个两个不懂丑小鸭变天鹅
需要时间比较多走过了伤痛才看得更通透
不到最后不会懂命运安排了什么

ps: i lurve my 6 mei ren + 1 =)
thanks for making my day too!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008 @ 10:42 PM

the myth
in most of the hospitals.

3 deaths and then peaceful...
my ward had 2 already.
or
eat bao in the ward
and ta bao(pack body) the next day..
it happened on sunday.

now i know it's true =S

wasn't really alert enough today =(
made some mistakes
forget to give my patients medications =(((

Sunday, November 16, 2008 @ 11:26 PM

what is the point of church?

@ 11:05 PM

Happy 92nd Birthday to my dearest Gong Gong!

Saturday, November 15, 2008 @ 9:09 PM

Lord, thanks for cell today
and my inner circle of friends.
Amen.

there's still more to learn =)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 11:14 PM

i've been doing PM shift since sunday
finally AM tmr.
the ward was 1/2 full these since tuesday
till now quite slack
but very very soon it'll be hectic again.
because 1 cubicle will become a mini high dependency unit.

week 2 already..
and i've been getting along well with other staff nurses
yay!

NYP attack tmr!

Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 11:26 AM

i still can't handle difficult patients.
i still dunno how to communicate with fierce, rough, demanding, horrible patients!

讲了不听，听了不改，
改又改不好！

urgh!
i need some PR lessons! hahaha
aye...must be firm.

Lord, gimme wisdom.
they are full of nonsenses!!!

Saturday, November 08, 2008 @ 10:18 PM

Smile Gabrielle Smile :)

Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 8:25 PM

我看见上帝的印记，我听见上帝的旨意
我愿意俯服敬拜你，我愿意歌舞颂扬你
一切都是你的美意，从此不再有心无力
求主赐下流奶与蜜，引领我至迦南美地

主啊我是你的掌上明珠，大海里沉睡的珍珠
虽然经过流泪之谷，在旷野里得蒙救赎
主啊我是你的掌上明珠，大海里苏醒的珍珠
我愿用尽我的全部，诚心所愿，单单顺服

Thursday, November 06, 2008 @ 10:09 PM

ytd i managed to finish writing my report
and pass report first.
today i managed to go for my lunch break,
finish writing my report,
and pass report first!

hmm im more confident in handling cases already ^^
hopefully i can gradually handle 6 patients well =)

i want to go shopping!

Tuesday, November 04, 2008 @ 9:03 PM

my knees turned jelly today when i walk from Outram MRT all the way to SGH block 7 for linn's surprise bday.

super busy in the ward today.
GOSH.
having SN Seow as my preceptor for 1st week
is totally horrible..
she seems to expect me to know everything already
when i don't even know everything!
today is the 2nd day im taking 3 cases fully in charge.

her expectations are quite high..
really felt that stress and she also made me feel that
nursing is not my job.

RARRHHH..
okie i better go read up my medications and stuffs..
tireddddddd =(((

Monday, November 03, 2008 @ 10:03 PM

NPSP CF SandWich Making Competition
"三不合一"

This is my group's sandwich!
ours is modern sandwich.

Sandwiches from other groups..
there's classic,modern and futuristic

Poor judges and the winner team!
NP Futuristic Group

Thanks God for the fun, craps and laughter
and the fellowship together.
especially after a long day of hard work in the ward
=(

it's gonna be better tmr! JIA YOU GABBY!

Sunday, November 02, 2008 @ 9:49 PM

Romans 14:13
"Let us therefore stop turning critical eyes on one another.
If we must be critical, let us be critical of our own conduct
and see that we do nothing to make a brother stumble or fall"

having conflicts with one another
or within one self and putting the blame on others
is something that i've done before, recently and currently.

"Never act from motives of rivalry or personal vanity, but in humility think
more of each other than you do of yourselves.
None of you should think only of
his own affairs, but should learn to see things from other people's points of
view"
(Phillipians 2:3-4 , J. McDowell, The Secret of Loving)

isn't easy. really. to look beyond our hurt to see the other's person hurt.

What does God wants to teach me in this conflict?
Whatever it is, I can learn from it.

and what JFLS said during cell,
"it's good training and lesson to learn from."

Lord, grant that I may seek more to understand than to be understood.
- St Francis of Assisi

humble, humble and be humble.
-Matt 7:1-5

@ 6:34 PM

urghhhh!
i want to buy cam..
mummy say wait.
next week the store got promotion

then later i went to check out mobile phones
and realised that on the 28th i can change mobile phone
and mummy say..
but one with camera

-.-"

haiz i think i gotta wait until neck long long le...

Saturday, November 01, 2008 @ 11:44 PM

Got a news from dorothy
that is we need to do 1 case presentation every week
and instead of presenting it to our preceptor,
we need to present to Sister/SSN Seow
*faint*

y my prcp so much busier than others???!?
just pray hard that i can manage 12 patients eventually...

船到桥头自然植！
prove it prove it!

@ 10:38 AM

gosh.. it's here again
and AH still the official medical aid for this event.
Tina Soo was calling out for bonded students from AH to join being medic.
Benefits are... a day off on the 8th!

but thinking back from last year,
where i need to go school at 9pm the day before,
stayed in school till 1 plus 2
then the bus will bring us to our designated area..
ard 3 plus.. and the first black runner i saw is at 6am plus
it's torturous! worst than doing 4 days ON shift,
and this super lousy, nth-inside first aid kit,
and 4 people managing one whole stretch of road
with only 1 first aid kit!
and after the race, was super super tiring..
i can't even go home myself.. gotta cab home.
totally CRAZY.

i'll say NONO. i rather be on duty in the hospital.

@ 9:49 AM

Canon Powershot E1!!
i'm gonna get it coming sunday!!
which color nice lehhh??