blogger giving me lots of headaches!
so... i've moved to LJ


http://jumpwithjoy.livejournal.com/

just finished watching the Singapore vs Liverpool match
although it's expected that Singapore will lose
but didn't expect it to be trashed so badly hahaha!
0-5 leh!

nwayz
it's worth watching for that 2 hours plus
because...
FERNANDO TORRES, XABI ALONSO
so shuai!!

wanted to post their photos
but freak blogger giving me lots of troubles these days.

i think i need to change host for my blog.
hmm..

today wasn't a good start for me.
prolly pms-ing.

but,
thank God for today.
i really need it.

Spent my whole day with churchies.
Meeting, cell group, yyxz practice.
i'm not trying to say i'm holy or what..

but church friends,
i need them
i can't live without.

yups.



anyways,
according to Dorothy...
it's independence day already!
so tommorrow, i'm going to bear all responsibilities of my patients.

this gonna be... stressful.


pray for meeeeee!

went coffeebean in the eveing,
sat there with a cup of hot morroccan mint green tea
to spend a time with myself and God,
preparing for tomorrow's cell group session.

often i'll say "my faith is strong."
but after some reflections and deep thoughts,
i've realised that my faith is 'broken'
to me, this faith is not about believing,
it's where i place God in my life.

"we are easily influenced by the people with whom we are closest (eg, friends, colleauges, spouses)"
it's really tricky i'd say.

i'm thankful that God actually reminded me and taught me what to do.
Through Sherry, He told me
原来 你我给予彼此的那么一点
遵循他的话语才更加甘甜

know God's standards, and guard my spirit.
Be reminded do not break the faith.
Father, guide me.

或许我们一直都太过自满

以为这是两人之间的 情感

原来 你我给予彼此的那么一点

遵循他的话语才更加甘甜

若是没有他 叫我们彼此相爱

你我的隔膜怎能全然撕开


若是没有他 叫我们凡事忍耐

你我的友情怎能持续到现在



你 我 他

尽力去建立寻找

每人都需要

你 我 他

这关系虽有三角

却是如此美好



也许我多年来在封闭自己

以为这是我和神之间的秘密

原来 天父赐予你我的慈爱恩典

通过互相分享才充分彰显

若是没有你 帮助我抛开烦恼

对他的应许依然无法信靠

若是没有你 带领我向神祈祷

对他的信实仍旧不会明了

She's fierce, she's strict, she likes to find faults, she loves to scold people, she always play the bad person in the ward and everyone dislikes her yet respect her alot.
Personally, i really respect her alot and i think that she's really a good mentor, a very very good nurse. Although she keeps nagging away, but without her, the ward will become a haywire.

Something happened yesterday, she got scolded by 2 sisters for having long roll calls
and it really made a great impact on her.
So much!... that today she refused to be the IC for the ward.
and true enough, the ward is in great mess...
Mass admissions, BMU all messed up, patients waiting for beds in the ward. hella crazy.
(Thank God i'm not on duty, i had my skills check session for CVP and TPN *phew*)

today she told us, from next week onwards, we'll become independent.
no more preceptor.. if anything goes wrong, we'll bear the responsibilities.

O.O" *spine-chilling*

i'm unhappy/angry/pissed with you.
and i'll continue till it strikes 12.

URGH. go away!

yes, i mean HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE.
it's not worth your 2.5hrs in the cinema
it's not worth booking online, paying more on weekends.
but at least it's worth hanging out with Hui Ru and Jason today:)


oh well, money can always earn back
but time spent together can't be.

Do I show in the way that I walk in my life
The love that You've given to me?
Do I communicate Your love, and Your grace?
Do I reflect who You are
In the way I choose to be?
Is the face that I see in the mirror
the one I want others to see?


Honestly,
since i start to work,
i failed to place God first..
and i've become self-centered.
totally forget about my calling into Nursing
i didn't pray about it consistently (prayed like twice only),
and have been thinking about how should i plan my career path....like:
-which area should i go to? ICU?
because more ZAI and alot of higher rank staffs were ICU-trained
-should i apply degree next year? or should i wait till my bond end?
-when can i get advance dip?
- how colleauges think about me? i want to have good appraisal afterall, better earnings.

it's like i want to complete my studies fast, hopefully promote fast, more earnings.
it's very materialistic.. and of cuz it's not wrong to want those things.
however ultimately, these "I want" are never ending.

read Doro's latest blog entry, her work satisfaction
it reminded me that work satisfaction is not about how high, how fast, how much achievements.
it's about at the end of the day, am i happy with what i'm doing? doing things that my heart desires, touching lives each day, earning gratitudes and smiles from people around me.
this is not the first time i blog about me, being reminded of my calling.

side-tracked btw, back to being self-centered.
i often tell myself, unable to go to church, unable to serve in church
is not an excuse for me to not grow in my spiritual faith.
but i realised that it does affect me somehow..

i can say that i'm not growing spiritually,
i can only rely on "back to basics"
Faith.Trust.Prayer and a few bible verses.

Lesser DG, lesser CG, lesser service
lesser servings, lesser support + encouragements
lesser time spent with church friends
lead to lesser reminders of "you're not alone"


Things just seem to feel a little bit different, a little bit distant

i'm skipping 2 consecutive sundays
sighs... for greater purposes
HA HA HA.

YES! i've completed my night duty!!
covered 4 nights in total!!
super tired.. and thank God coffee works for me.

there's always a saying that your last night is always busy.
True enough.. i was madly busy.
IV plug not working, 2 Admissions, 2 Hourly parameters, Hourly CLC,
dozen of IV abx to administer, changes to do, routine non-stop call bells,
serving bed pans and more bed pans, sponging, write reports, BGMS,
send patients to X-ray... hella busy!
and my freaking assistant nurse didn't really help me at all.
well well.. IT'S OVER. though the next night will come soon again.

i'm gonna sleep now and later go out with cuzzies!
REST DAY CM! happy :)

can i do weekend nights instead?

washed 10 odds bedpans cuz our ward sanitizer is spoilt.
1 pt woke up at 3am wants to brush teeth
1 pt woke up at 2am wants to walk when she's chairbound, can't even walk.
1 pt sucidial precaution, wants to go home to get her things because she stayed near and she really walked away.. thank God security caught her back.

full of nonsense sia!

before i work tonight,
pray for a good night :)

my first night shift as a registered nurse
fairly busy.. haha felt that time passed quite fast

wrestled with my confused patient today
when i was sponging her together with annie
got pinched by her, hit by her on my tummy as well as face.
good thing that sudden whack from her wasn't strong enough for me to sustain bruises

huanying wanted to prank call me during my shift
haha apparently she failed because she msged me
"when free u msg me. i prank call u."


FYI: when nurses got nth to do at night, they prank call each other. It's a norm LOL.

as i was struggling about offering 1/10 of my salary to God
to drag, carry forward and ask God for forgiveness
because seriously the amount left over for me isn't much.

but mum randomly said this to me yesterday that freak me out.
" girl ah... u can owe everyone money, but don't owe God money.. remember to tithe."

scary isn't it?
hahaha..
so. no excuses at all!

there's something on my mind
that i can't get rid of...
and the only way to get rid of it
is to make known
but gosh.. i don't have that courage yet.





Y said, "Huh? why him? eeyer"
E said, "He sucks'
D said, "look for others lah"
I said, "I dunno. only God knows."
i think better kick you out somewhere else before i lose my focus.

well well..
i made a mistake today at work.

i pre documented "dressing dry and intact"
when i didnt check my patient's dressing yet
because i wanted to check it later...
however got caught by my ssn
hahaha.. suay but okay lah i'm wrong mah.


i really need to learn to do things more slowly
and more precise.. cannot anyhow!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
put in more effort gabby!!

went for a shopping trip with von in town
after attending a boring course known as
"building a hassle free hospital"

nurses nowadays really busy sia.
i got to do ppt to present my ward's kaizen on pre meal meds
and help out in a research project regarding wound care.
oh manz.. once i've confirmed
i guess i'll have more stuffs to do =\


ho ho ho good game yea.

my internet explorer giving me lots of headaches these days..
i just can't surf the web!!! keep on having "error on page"
it took me quite a long time to log into blogger
freak shyt. i have to keep refreshing and refreshing then i'll see the website.
*roll eyes max*

finally went jogging today!
i always like the feel of after jogging
it's like.. "WOW. i'm tired!"

actually i feel tired everyday
shucks. bad bad
i shall go sleep and have sweet dreams.


may my dreams come true
i dreamt about you
but i need to work so can't continue...

vina's finally back with us!!
so happy to have her back
finally 6 of us reunite!
so fun to be going crazy with my cousins again ^^

im going to have my night shift soon..
4 nights!
oh manz.....

i was packing my drawers
and read through all my letters/cards/etc
i've collected from my friends since long long time ago.

and i really treasure these lil things alot alot
to me, they are the best gifts that one can have.
because what's written inside these letters
after heartfelt messages for someone
and they are priceless.

while reading those letters/cards from churchies,
memories of serving together, tears, joy, hugs, encouragements
all floating in my mind.
serving in alpha camp 06 - programme comm
alpha camp 07- group leader
alpha camp 08- pub comm
this year, or rather maybe in future, i may not get to serve in alpha camp
even participating may be a problem...
but i thank God for these lil notes, cards, letters allowing me to be reminded of my servings
and reflect upon my life before and now.

also read all the letters from Tic Tac
i believe it's someone from church
although till now T.T remain annoymous
but T.T didnt fail to encourage me since 2005
coming 5 years already T.T! and u haven't reveal urself!!!


nways..
i want to thank my lovely poly missys!!
for celebrating my belated birthday =)
i really enjoyed myself alot.

You Must Come Again.

sighs... i failed my driving test!
1 immediate failure - fail to stop at stop line
WA LAOOOO i did stop lor! just that i move off quite fast oso!
34 demerit points

sigh sigh sighs
nvm! i'll pass next time round!

I can't wait for august to come
that's when we can work independently
no one to boss us around.
we can work at our own pace
life will be easier i hope.

i really count myself "lucky"
my preceptor treats me well
and she helps me alot
relationships with some colleagues fairly well too

now that i'm twenty
i guess i need to really learn to be much more serious at work
less complains and also remember the fact that why i'm called to be in this profession.

child of God
staff nurse

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