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Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 11:40 PM

daisy 的花语

小雏菊所代表的花语是心中的爱，

“have the love in the heart”——“不能发育的爱情”

小雏菊，借着自己一片一片剥下的花瓣，慢慢地在心里念着，“爱我，不爱我”
直到最后一片即是代表爱人的心，结果就在这儿。

因此……

小雏菊通常是暗恋者送的花，她愿意把自己喜欢的人一直默默的收藏在心里，默默地对他好……
但是，有一天，她疲惫了，累了，哭了，
在最后选择低下头，静静的离开那里，离开她一直守候着的那个地方。
她知道，自己并不能跟其他人那样，清雅得停留着……
在最后的心痛里，她幸福过，开心过，快乐过……没留下自己的花瓣，离开了！

罗马神话里，小雏菊是森林中的妖精——贝尔帝丝的化身花朵。
所谓森林的妖精，便是指活力充沛的淘气鬼，
因此，小雏菊的花语也代表着——快活。

传说，受到这种花语祝福而诞生的人，可以过着像贝尔蒂丝一样，明朗、天真快活的人生。

但是，有时会被能言善道的人所欺骗，不过，我相信她会坚强的！
因为坚强，也是她的另外一种花语。
愉快，幸福，纯洁，天真，和平，希望——这就是小雏菊！

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 12:02 AM

time for a change

i went science centre with Sue fern today =)

according to Dotz, i'm posted to MICU.. next month.
i'm really scared.. really
not enough experience, not enough knowledge,
the sisters there have high expectations, the Drs will question a lot,
some staff nurses there are quite anal (according to eleanor)

then y go??
maybe cuz i'm too ambitious.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
1 Timothy 4:12 (NIV)

a new start.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 9:25 AM

snap snap!

behind each photo tells a beautiful story.

probably that's why i want to learn photography.
i can't wait for today's body world trip with xoxo Suefern.
i can't wait to hang out with Stephanie for movies
i can't wait to meet my HKSS girls for dinner
i can't wait for my childhood friends to gather again

Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 10:29 AM

my new gadget

Fujiflim Finepix F200 ExR

actually i really wanted Canon S90.
but the sales person in the end recommended this to me
and it's cheaper than S90, so i got this.

so happy with my new gadget!!
now i can take nice nice photos too!

Saturday, January 23, 2010 @ 11:40 PM

hahaha. silly me.

surprisingly, there's quite a no. of people from my church joined westside story
and we had a post event which is a game of Frisbee

really thank God that we get to know people from other churches
and know how's their church is doing.
it's NOT THE SAME as any social club gathering.

it's also a blessing that now more and more youths from WOW and Lishi
knows each other. that's y i created a group to keep us connected.

at first i was super worried that our response for this event will be super poor.
but a lot of them whom i don't expect them the join actually joined.
and they enjoyed it =)

Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 11:16 PM

the choice.

with fears, i told my ward sister that i want to go ICU.
i didn't pray about it. i just go ahead with it.
probably because i want to have a change of environment or setting
i want to leave the ward and here's the chance.

i dunno is this what the God wants me to do
but i know He'll plan for me.

then i attended this canto patient, we named her 'hai lor'
cuz she always say 'hai lor, hai lor'

i took care of her when i was a student
and now she's back..we started talking. but it was tough.
because i can't speak nor understand canto
and vice versa, she can't understand my language.
i told her in canto that i can't speak canto

she said, don't know then learn lor!
learn already then know lor!
and she continue speaking in canto
thank God that i've been watching hk drama
somehow some words i can catch
so she started asking me am i married.
i told her i'm still young, i'm 20 only.
she said she know, because she remembers me.
then she started to talk to me
like i'm her grand-daughter like that.

comparing both photos,
yup, she've deteriorated.

"dunno then learn lor!" she said.
hits me because that point of time i'm fear of going to ICU
with my 10 month old experience, i'm going to ICU.

and i'm going to miss the time and chances of having nice chit chat sessions with my patients
because in ICU

SICU - road to recovery, not too bad, but patient don't really have to mood to talk i think.
MICU - road to death. most of them are... "half dead"

i'll let Him decide for me =))

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 11:46 PM

to me,

it's not the outcome matters, it's the principles and processes behind it.

Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 11:36 PM

Goals and Dreams

i need some goals for my life.

short- term goals
- slim down at least 5 kg!
- join a marathon
- get into USIM or NUS (nursing course)
- join Operation Smile (http://www.operationsmile.org)

Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 12:04 AM

i really don't know.

you'll never walk alone
- liverpool.

i know that in my spiritual walk with God, i'm never alone.
but i felt that i'm alone.

glad that i've shared what i'm currently going through during cell
and im not alone, because i have brothers and sisters who went through it before.

and the problem is, i know i'm spiritually not there anymore,
but what's wrong?

when i sing worship, that passion to worship isn't there anymore.
in fact it's filled with lots of guilt and confusions.
the lyrics help me express my feelings towards God
but i'm doubting myself, are those real? i can't differentiate anymore.

my passion to serve isn't there anymore.
i really feel disheartened and disappointed, although it's expected but still.
my servings be it in church or at work.

so conformed into the world already, until at times i don't know what's right what's wrong.
there isn't guilt at all when i'm doing wrong things.

true enough, i'm slipping into hell ..i'm reluctant to go off the cliff.
"Gabrielle, you know one, you know what's happening just that you didn't want to listen."

i'm going to try again, be more determined to stick close to you,
be more anal about right and wrong.
if i fail to do so,

Lord, would you push me down the cliff, no matter how hurtful it'll be, what price it'll take.
because i don't want to deteriorate further.

Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 11:30 PM

my 4 nights shift.

a photo of Alex Hosp corridor at night

ended well =)))

after work today, i went to meet Crazy Cuzzies for KFC breakfast *YUMS*
after which, slack abit and went home to sleep for less than 2 hours, i woke up automatically.
quite surprised cuz i thought i'll pigggg on the bed.

then went to meet Juin, went Chinatown
seriously chinatown got nothing much to buy.
only for that 1 particular shop in chinatown point worth going. HAHA.
then went to temptation island
CRAP. bugis street.. all the TEN TEN TEN was tempting.
so much for a shopping trip on my sleeping day
consciously telling myself,
GABRIELLE DO NOT SPEND MONEY

but..

nways,
i got a denim vest with a nice white tank to match
denim short and a nice checkered 'farmer' looking top.

indeed shopping is therapeutic...
it'll just resolve my 4 days of tiredness

not feeling tired at all,
we went to meet enli for dinner!
TOM YAM FRIED RICE WAS GOOD

and we started topics like
y gambling's wrong, what's kind of job suits us...
no longer those my math teacher sucks, my english teacher lousy,
my school friends bully me kind of topics.

we've all grown up^^

Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 4:02 PM

facing my giants

honestly, i don't know who's my giant(s)
probably myself?
the only thing i know is
i'm not doing well spiritually.. where?
i don't know.

Saturday, January 09, 2010 @ 11:05 PM

polo tee and short with a belt.

i couldn't wake up this morning,
even my hp alarm rang, i just couldn't wake up..

was 20mins late for the CAC westside story dry run
because i went to the wrong Telok Ayer haha.
just recce the places and talk about the games
registration so far was only 6 from holy covenant mc.
really gotta pray hard that my church youths will gladly attend this event
because most of the games are held in bpmc and lots of efforts were made by other churches.

really hope that this goes well...

after that went out with vivian and vina,
OMG. it's like shopping again!!

and i bought a book =)

@ HMV 10 bucks!

but before i read this, i need to complete my another book first
hahaha!

Friday, January 08, 2010 @ 10:27 PM

the reel reason.

"why did you cut your hair?"
" i've always wanted short hair... "

or maybe actually...
i just want to show that i can let it go.
and chopping off my hair, hoping that everything can start afresh, a new.
there's an old saying that cutting your hair it's like cutting your worries/sorrows away
but a new look doesn't mean a new person, a new character, a new life.

nwayz,
the real reason for this hair cut is really because i wanted short hair.
hahahaha!

if cutting hair really cuts my worries and sorrows away,
i will shave my head manz! hahahha
maybe that's why old monks are bald because they believe that saying
and new generation monks kept their hair because it's not true at all!

Wednesday, January 06, 2010 @ 10:46 PM

the busyness is back.

after few days of slacking in the ward during working hours,
today. the busyness is back.

non stop admissions,
demented patient starts to wayang
patient complained, relatives complained,
non stop call bells,
something happened to patients.

it's time to pull up my socks,
and be a nurse that touches lives.

Monday, January 04, 2010 @ 11:26 PM

re-search

today, sister yiap came
"Gabrielle, you're good and research right?"
in my heart was "it's 1 year ago! i haven't been doing research stuffs!"
before i can say a thing, she continued
"i need you to help ur sister julita to do a research project on wound management."
and my heart says
"ALRIGHT. i tot that was donkey year's project and it was cancelled, why do again?"

"you do a lit review first."
"okay... when must i submit it?"
"end of JAN"
"you and dorothy do together."

[COOL. hey dotz, do u feel like it's a back to school thing??!? hahahaha!]

on that point of time(a short 5mins)
i was thinking, shit where got time to complete!
and i don't even know the exact title yet. 2 WEEKS!!

but on the other hand, after much thoughts
i really Thank God for this chance
it's like a mini trial test to see if i'm ready to study part time uni or not.
if i realised that 2 weeks already drain my brain juice
i guess God is telling me to wait till my bond ends
then i'll pursue my degree.

true?

Sunday, January 03, 2010 @ 10:05 PM

short hair club.

there isn't any reason for cutting short hair.
i've always wanted to cut my hair short
just that i didnt had that courage to..

sighs.. it's so difficult to style my hair like how my hairstylist taught me.
need more practice leh.

nwayz,

for once, i finally get to take care of snowflakes (we gave her this nickname)
she's is SUPER CUTE
her voice is so sweet and cute,
her super white hair is so flossy and soft.
and her early dementia made her
really like a little kid.

Saturday, January 02, 2010 @ 9:08 PM

imma bobhead!

i went to cut my hair today!
thanks teck yi and vivian accompanying me to do this very brave stunt.

i like my new hair cut =))

Friday, January 01, 2010 @ 10:33 PM

zeros and ones.

slacked at home today.
was terribly boring

but thank God
at least there's family dinner @ ah ma hse today
to make my new year day interesting and memorable.

happy new year everyone!