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Sunday, February 28, 2010 @ 9:19 PM

conquer thyself

i think that's all i need to do
through Him alone.

but why is it so tough?

Saturday, February 27, 2010 @ 9:52 PM

love is all around.

watched summer wars with vivian and vina today before we meet other cuzzies
over at clarke quay for the marriage proposal of Eric to Lirong.
it was really romantic
so glad to be able to witness the whole thing
aww..

after which 6 of us crazy cuzzies went for dinner
then we sit by the river side slacking away
waving to boats passing by, looking at the extreme swings
hahaha!

keke im going to maple with them!

actually, i'm not over you yet.

Friday, February 26, 2010 @ 10:54 PM

it's not a good waveform.

if a patient have atrial fib or flutter,
a synchronized cardioversion shock will help to get back the normal waveform.
if i were to put my spiritual life as a waveform,
i guess i'm waiting for that shock to change it back to normal again.

as i was requesting my rosters,
it came to my mind that i should request for some weekends off
and somehow, i felt that i didn't want to request any,
if i were to work on sundays or saturdays, let it be.

because i've changed new dept, so i need to reslot my annual leave
there's still 50-50% chance of getting my annual leave for june mission trip
but i decided to skip the chance, without much hesitation.

its not a good sign, i know.

Thursday, February 25, 2010 @ 10:26 PM

a MICU patient.

for the past few days, i'm always at SICU having my induction,
and today we went over to MICU (like finally...)
there lies a typical heart failure ICU patient.
OH MY GAWD.

patient had an ett tube, attached to ventilator,
a central line w 4 lumens, 1 with maintenance drip, 2 with inotropic supports running
3 syringe pumps running as well, an IABP line (rare line in AH) at the femoral,
3 IA lines, 2 over the upper limbs 1 over the dorsalis pedis.
NGT attached with compact pump... messy and scary.

we also learnt about donning the PAPR for airborne infectious cases.
and yup, being in MICU, it's very common to get airborne infectious cases
like atypical influenza, atypical pneunomia, tb.

so much to learn! but my basics still very chui!
good thing i've sorted out all my notes.

reading cardio stuffs now!

@ 1:41 AM

back to that first thoughts and plans.

it's going to 2 AM now, and i left 4 hours of sleep.
reason being, i was packing my cupboards ,
sorting and digging out my old lecture notes
to do some readings, so that i can survive in MICU.

then, i saw this written assignment i did for my nursing management module and
that reminds me of what i want to achieve in nursing.

it's really amazing how God brought me thus far.
although it's slightly different from what i want ( i wanted SICU)
but the objectives still there.

haha! i suddenly felt so motivated!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010 @ 11:24 PM

medical intensive care unit

i'll be having 2 weeks induction programme
everything will start from scratch again.
6mths probation.

OMG. from surgical i'm going medical
and for the past 2 days induction
i've learnt A LOT.
and they are all quite... tough.

damn. i wonder if i can survive or not

so scary

Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 9:07 PM

time to go!

TMR IS MY LAST DAY IN WARD 10!!
omg... so fast. i've gotten my scrubs already

scary. but i can't wait to go too.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 @ 9:53 PM

i will learn to say goodbye.

i'm counting down the days to my transfer to MICU.
it's getting tougher each day for me to say goodbye,
somehow i feel like i don't want to transfer to MICU already.
for the past few days, my relationships with my colleagues and superiors
are getting better, we can at least talk openly.
however very soon, from the surgical side, i'm going over to the medical side.
a totally new environment. i'll miss all my colleagues at the surgical side =(

Saturday, February 06, 2010 @ 2:02 AM

Faith is all that matters.

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

many a times, i'm disheartened, i'm broken-hearted.
wondering WHY WHY WHY.. WHY? GOD?
and it's hard to sing again.
but God is still God, i have a reason to sing, a reason to worship.
He proved that He's faithful.
and it's my turn to stand firm, guard my heart, keep my faith
continue to sing and to worship.
i want to sing praise in the desert.

Friday, February 05, 2010 @ 10:57 PM

the Core book of Alexandra Health.

was newly added into my library

i left 4 days, starting from tmr,

to complete this whole book

because i got a test on the 10th!

CEO loves this book

and he made every staff of Alex Health to read it.

just read the foreward

and actually i'm quite excited about the book.

i shall go jogging tmr, shower,

then couch in coffeebean

before and prolly after meeting and 1735 'work'shop!

yay!

Thursday, February 04, 2010 @ 11:10 PM

Mother Teresa once said...

" Take your eyes from yourself and rejoice that you have nothing,
that you are nothing, that you can do nothing.

Give Jesus a big smile each time your nothingness frightens you.

Just keep the joy of Jesus as your strength, be happy and at peace,

accept whatever He takes with a big smile. "

we had a mock resus today in the ward.
and i've tried 2 rounds and it wasn't really good
cuz i haven't had enough experience yet.
however, this is something i'll do pretty often, no longer mock but real.
when i'm going to MICU...

it's scary, there's a lot more things that i need to learn
i sent a patient to SICU yesterday,
saw their teamwork in transferring patient to the bed,
setting up drips, checking patient's vitals.
"WOW. can i do that?" i really questioned myself.
so afraid of being an hassle than a helper. sighs.

counting down the days that i'll be in MICU
i'm already missing my ward staff,
my fun loving colleauges,
my nicest ward sister that i'll ever find
my 'menopausal + anal' SSN that can be quite nice at times.

Sister Julita encouraged me today,
"Gabrielle, when you get there must learn to persevere,
don't be disheartened when you're there, because their knowledge is better than yours."

i find myself really blessed,
to be able to go MICU with so little experience.
yesterday i was really scared about it,
but thank God when Sister Chee said
she will stand behind and guide her nurses
i really felt comforted.

18 more days to MICU.

Monday, February 01, 2010 @ 10:13 PM

i want my duchenne smile

none other than a genuine smile

what i learnt today was

no matter how pretty you are.
how attractive ur skin and figure is,
it can never beat a genuine smile,
a duchenne smile.