sighs, running nose early morning with a little bit of sore throat is not a good sign, true enough, when night falls the sore got worse followed by coughing but this time, i'm a little more paranoid. because last week, i've nursed a H1N1 patient. i really hope it's just a normal flu!
Sunday, April 25, 2010 @ 12:14 AM
scary but...
i wonder how's Madam B, hope she'll survive this/ today i got the news that she's H1N1 positive.
to me, it's really scary, because i saw them in their most critical time. being hypoxic, unable to response at all. family members can't visit them, only see from afar. and honestly, even though i'm vaccinated, i'm afraid that i'll get it too, because of the long hours nursing her that day.
was chatting with Dr J Ong at work and he said that the 2nd H1N1 wave is coming and it is more deadly because the virus mutates already.
guess not many people know but there's an outbreak at 4 wards in IMH and probably an outbreak in the community because Mdm B's H1N1 is community acquired.
the world is really coming to an end.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010 @ 11:27 PM
unexpected, but what to do?
life is short. really. you will never know when u turn is up. and when it's up, will it be too late?
icu setting is very morbid
had a patient just passed away due to brain dead. she refused to go to the hospital and ended up hypoxic. had a patient recently went Bali for a meeting caught a flu and it turned out to be Atypical Pneumonia, in very critical situation had a patient had no medical hx, yet got reintubated because he can't breathe on his own needs a trachy and most probably, he can't talk for a few months had a patient just refused to comply to fluid restriction and ended up in critical condition.
sometimes we know things ain't right but we just want to do it our way... or sometimes it's just purely our life.
to madam B and uncle C, get well soon!!
Friday, April 16, 2010 @ 9:15 AM
breakouts
a terrible thing happened yesterday, people who were involved obviously can show out their true real emotions how about people who weren't involved? just simply don't bother? i wish i could. but this is a family matter.
everyone is too anxious about my old little woman esp my dad. he started yelling crazily. and of course, people yell back. yet, my little old woman can lie down there as if nth happened.
honestly, i don't really care what the adults fighting about i just pray that whatever it is, seek the Dr, don't do things without clarifying esp to a very old fragile and depressed woman.
what i'm more concerned about is my old woman. she like having some functional decline physically, and the impression she gave me was she enjoys her children being anxious about her because when she say her children rushed down to see her, she said it in a very delightful way. far worse, she's smiling.
it really scared me. seriously. i really pray that the Dr this time will check through throughly, it's worrying.
"pray for the family, satan is trying to destroy it." says mum.
Monday, April 12, 2010 @ 10:53 PM
Rediscover You
I need to just admit My faith is paper thin I'm feeling so burned out On religion
I say an empty prayer I sing a tired song I need to just admit that the passion's gone
And I want to get it back
You told me Look for You and I will find So I'm here Like I'm searching for the first time Revive me, Jesus Make this cold heart start to move Help me rediscover You
I want to learn to pray The way that David prayed I want my soul to burn when I hear Your name I want to feel like new I want to hunger for you Bring me back to life like only You can do Cause I don't want to stay the same
You told me Look for You and I will find So I'm here Like I'm searching for the first time Revive me, Jesus Make this cold heart start to move Help me rediscover You
Lord, I want to be Yours today I want to know the passion of the saints And how they were changed
You told me Look for You and I will find So I'm here Like I'm searching for the first time Revive me, Jesus Make this cold heart start to move
I want to burn for You Bring me back to life, Jesus Help me rediscover You
@ 12:09 AM
opposite directions
i don't want a red head!!! i don't want to be involved in any conflict at work!!!
and most importantly, my spiritual life is really in a downward trend!!!
urgh!!!
Thursday, April 08, 2010 @ 9:50 PM
just like a little kid.
thank God ah ma didnt shrug me off when i started "nagging" at her to eat. told her that all our heart hurts when we see the nurse reinsert the iv cannula again and again.. then she say i'll eat and let u see =)
really pray hard that she'll be better each day less grumpy, more cheerful.
these few days are just work, chia village, work, chia village thank God for pulling our family tighter and more bonded relationship with cousins like Li Hui, Li Wen, Ah Wei are better.
now, i feel like i need to hang out! shopping, dress up, chill out!
damn, i can't cut my hair! everyday became a BAD HAIR DAY IT'S OUT OF SHAPE!!!
Tuesday, April 06, 2010 @ 11:00 PM
HAPPY 1 YEAR OLD!
i'm finally a 1 year old registered nurse! this 1 year was really happening =) high and low, ups and downs... 1 more year, i'm free from bond!
yay!!
Ah ma still grumpy at times, still on iv drips and iv meds.. gonna sleep with ah ma today good nightz!
someone asked me.. so u like high D or ICU? hmm.....
Saturday, April 03, 2010 @ 11:19 PM
Ah Ma Jiayou!
Family support is very important for Ah Ma now.
1. Her Creatinine is 290++ a little bit more, she need to be having dialysis. 2. Her epigastric pain may be due to her heart, she's having bradycardia recently, Dr say she may collapse anytime if her heart is really affected.. but he doesn't know either. 3. Ah ma may commit suicide, cuz she's very depressed.
Ah Ma! press on! jiayou!!
Finally back to work today handled 1 patient and 1 new case. MICU was packed with 7/8 patients omg.. tmr will be freaking busy sia!
Friday, April 02, 2010 @ 11:08 PM
Bond of Love
i thought that Ah ma was feeling better since yesterday cuz she joked, she laughed, she talked, she ate.
today, she started giving out all her gold stuffs to every grandchildren and return her children umbilical cords when all of us went to visit gong gong to decor his little condominium, on the other hand, ah ma was having SOB and gastric pain she told xiao jim and xiao shu that she cannot make it already..
called mobile Dr to review ah ma, she said that ah ma's heart rate was 44bpm and she query ah ma having peptic ulcer dz or pancreatitis but gotta wait till tmr to know what's really happening.
i told Rev Yu, asked her to pray for ah ma and my family because ah ma wants a lot of people with her, however, after sunday, some of us need to study, some of us need to work we can't be there for her the whole day.
sighs, i know about if a couple so loving so bonded, and 1 passed away, the other may pass away in a short while..
i really pray that this won't happen to us. may not be able to take it already.
