Sunday, August 21, 2011 @ 4:05 PM
why?
it's been a year already.
today is my Ah Ma's 1st death anniversary.
although things happened,
but at least i'm glad that during march
we, as a whole family, visited the columbarium for Gong gong's death anniversary
just ended my alpha camp meeting,
i called Y, then i realised that she've went to the columbarium already
and currently at my uncle's place.
heard from dad, initial plan was 5pm.
so i asked how come? he didn't know about it.
checked out facebook, noted J posted a photo from the columbarium
he's been there already too.
IT A YEAR ALREADY. WHY ARE WE STILL LIKE THIS??!
why can't we visit ah ma together? i tot its the only time where the whole family
can actually be together.
i went to my ah ma hse yesterday, stood at the garden, reminiscing all the laughters
that flood the whole garden. the christmas parties, the usual spot for our CNY family photo, the corners where all my uncles and aunties will sit together and chit chat with my grandparents, and us cousins will be playing outside or chatting inside the house.
i really really miss those days and hope to get it back.
because that's the time where i am really happy.
its the kind of joy that even close friends can't provide.
:'(
Thursday, August 11, 2011 @ 11:46 PM
car sick
today was my first time taking the ambulance with its siren on.
usually siren wasn't on because its not an emergency case
but today as i transferred my patient to NUH CTSICU
whoa.. i experienced that fast speed ambulance
super fast. and quite scary.
its like adrenaline rush, driver rushing to reach NUH,
me and the MO we're looking at the vital signs..
patient's blood pressure crashing because of the high bolus dose
of IV Propofol given, thank God he did not desaturate because
the MO who's with me was having a bad car sick ahaha.
these few days have been quite happening
rushing for time, everything is done stat
very fast paced.
now as i relax on my bed typing.
WOW. i can feel that i'm really exhausted.
and my heart is still beating pretty fast.
2 more days to off days!
let it be good!
Tuesday, August 09, 2011 @ 11:15 PM
it's a sad PH
did MET(Medical Emergency Team) outreach today
went to see 2 patients.
MET outreach is done by ICU nurses who's LSCN trained or Adv Dip or have been working in the ICU for quite sometime. Basically we review patients who was transferred out of the ICU the day before, and see how is the patient coping in the general ward.
so...
patient 1:
He came in for APO, when i review him, i noticed that he had a spike of temp
and he was feeling nauseated. Checked his vital signs, it was alright just a bit of tachycardia (fast heart rate) because he was coughing, he wasn't having fever at that time, not breathless nor any pain, i had a bad feeling, therefore i told the staff nurse incharge of him to observe him. then 2 hours later, he's in the ICU. before he was coded, he was talking to his family members, then shortly he was unresponsive, his family members thought that he was sleeping. only when the nurse when to check on him, then realised that he have bradycardia (slow heart rate)
Coded in the ward, sent to the ICU, he's already asystole, did CPR and thank God our registrar didnt ask us to stop even though the downtime is 40mins already, and he's pulse returned after a few cycles of CPR. So many collapsed cases i've seen, this is the 2nd time i saw a return pulse, i was really happy about it. praying hard inside that he can make it thru. but on the other hand i know he's actually "half-dead"
his pupils are fixed and dilated, he's very dusky looking, and with that prolong down time, for sure he have hypoxic brain injury.
patient 2:
She had single vessel disease, meaning 1 of the coronary artery was blocked, so she did a PCI(percutaneous coronary intervention), on the day when she was going to be transferred out to the general ward, she had an acute stroke, made believe that it was due to a cardiac emboli. I sponged her before she had the stroke, she was talking to her family members, the next moment when L wanted to serve her lunch, she could no longer talk, she was drowsy looking, disorientated, she was slanting to her right and totally no strength to move her right limbs. i saw her in the ward today, she can recognise me, she know she had a stroke, she know she can't talk. and i really feel very sad for her.
these two patients are those whom i've come across within hours and the very next thing was they turned bad. depressing manx. ha ha!
Monday, August 08, 2011 @ 1:38 AM
soft toys
i ordered an expensive soft toy for myself today.
actually i really like soft toys a lot, esp those big ones.
i used to be very practical and money savvy
but now im like total opposite.
die lah. hahaha!
my soft toy will be kept by sharon till i shift back to jurong again.
oh wells, its my own housewarming gift for myself
HA HA!
