Monday, December 19, 2011 @ 12:27 AM
this is grace.
Alpha camp finally ended yesterday!!!
i'll say that it is really amazing.
many last min changes and hiccups but i believe it's all God's will, everything is controlled by Him.
and i really give thanks for that.
remember during day two,
i really felt super tired after the whole day at bukit batok nature reserve.
and i have this urge to remove the night games that day.
cuz the campers looked tired, and i also felt that we should do more spiritual stuffs
like sharing about how we felt after being betrayed during the games etc.
so with the daoshis, we discussed about whether should we remove the night games. because i wanted the campers to go and shower and freshen up for the talk.
from the discussions, i can see that most of them doesn't want to remove it,
they want to continue the game, don't have to force the campers to shower for the talk.
i personally felt, at that point of time,
it feels like that daoshis may think that it will make the campers feel that the camp becomes boring,
if we all just do sharings, listen to the talk and these will spoil the campy mood.
i also felt that the talk seems to be least important than the games. and i was pretty frustrated.
but i thank God that they gave me the authority to decide whether to cancel it or not.
so i went into another room, feeling very frustrated.
why do i have this feeling that they belittle the talk session. this year, i wanted the camp to be more spiritual and not only just having fun with games and just buzz the objectives,
i want the campers to acknowledge their emotions they have during the gameplay as well as hopefully to relate it back to their own lives. and i remembered how may and i fought for a spiritual ministry time for this year's alpha camp. i teared as i told May about how frustrated i were when it feels that the spiritual aspect of the camp is missing.
we literally cried out and prayed that the Lord will make full use of the time during the talk and sharings when we decided to remove the night games. and we spoken to Rev Lek, hoping that he can suggest sharing pointers for us. that point of time when i decided to go ahead by removing the games,
i received a text msg saying that the campers are pretty hype up with the food auction games.
and it feels like a voice telling me "hey you don't have to remove the night games!".
but i decided to remove the games still.
when i spoke to the daoshis, they kind of expected it. and 1 of them told me..
"then you'll be having tension with the prog comm". i replied " i can handle this."
i went to look for the prog comm, they were very cool about it.
in fact they are thankful too as they are all tired already. i thank God again.
then during the short break time before the talk, i spoke to a few campers
asking them how they felt when they know that the night games is off.
they were pretty sad about it. and my heart softens, i was wondering should we continue the night games after the talk. then again, i told myself, NO. i cancelled the game already and i want this time for the Lord to work.
then that night, i saw how the Lord uses His perfect time to do this perfect work.
i teared again. looking at the campers' response, i know the Lord is at work touching each individual's life.
my heart is just filled with praise.
it was a God centric decision. (thanks to Jian en for the small talk before the camp)
be it so many people telling me "hey don't remove the night games" , i choose to believe and trust that the Lord will use the night games time to work His ways, and He did.
1 person received christ that night.
then that same night again, we're all talking about pei tan yuans, what's the protocol, what's the best way to plan it. then, i was frustrated again. i felt that why do we choose who should pray for whom.
if one is spirit led and want to pray for the person who responded, why can't they just go and pray for this person? prayers are unlimited right?
i told the comm that i believe that with the amount of pei tan yuans we have assigned, we will be short handed still, because i believe that the Lord will work in our campers and whoever steps out, whoever is crying at the seats they need to be ministered. even those who are not responding, they also have to be ministered by having people to keep praying at the back for their hearts to response, for the Lord to work.
it's not only for the people who responded! i was really frustrated again.
and we came out with a plan still.
the next day, alpha night response was overwhelming. we couldn't handle at all. too many people have to be prayed for and we're short handed. but i was glad. because the Lord worked again.. and the human thing in me was a lil proud... i'm like "hehe see i'm right! why do we need to plan who to pray for who?"
i felt that the Lord really hears by prayer from the start of the camp
when i prayed "Lord, be with me. be with me"
and He did.
another thing that the Lord touches my heart was the prayer walk.
after taking turns with May to brief the campers about the prayer walk group by group, i didn't go and rest, instead i felt that i wanted to be in the prayer walk looking at the campers walking thru.
my heart cries out to the Lord again.
this person at this station is broken. that person at that station is hurt.
i can feel those hurt deep down in my heart, i can see the Lord is working in them.
the scene was disheartening yet comforting.
then i walked into the sanctuary, saw many of them writing letters
i was touched by the Lord once again
these broken relationships are all submitted to the Lord, these people are re-committing themselves to the Lord, these people are willing to acknowledge all the hurts they have.
it was legendary, it was awesome.
to be able to see that amazing grace the Father have for us
to see how much Love the Father fill us with
to see the works of the Holy Spirit guiding each and every individual to know the Savior,
to know the Father.
indeed, God is God, He is Lord, this Love endures forever.
AMEN! CONNECTED 2011 成功！！
