and i wonder will it be this way for the rest of the years ahead.

wasn't looking forward to it at all. 

felt pretty upset, but its going to be alright.

it's been a quite some time that i've been missing those days and times together

and to overcome those emotions,  i've indulged in work and other stuffs to not think about it.

but whenever the season is around the corner

i can't help but to reminiscence  those fun and laughters that we all once had.

i have to admit, till today my heart's still broken

still disappointed, still upset and couldn't accept.

however this is not within my control

我是否能够再一次拥有那些年的回忆？
我是否还能拥有那些年的快乐？
还是真的已经在那时候 失去了所有？
现在开始 真的不一样了。。。

at least, my last CNY was a wonderful CNY i had ever.