Thursday, September 27, 2012 @ 11:33 PM
short term and long term goals
one by one everyone is leaving the ICU
they found somewhere else to reside.
KH left to start up a business
GF went to became a cardiac nurse
YT is going to the acute ward to start up that ward, that will be an opportunity for career advancement for her.
KL submitted her resignation letter today, probably found a better job elsewhere.
very soon, LL, J and the rest will resign and leave this place.
me? i'm still thinking of what should i do after my bond.
research? i used to like it back in diploma days but now?
educator? do i have the patience to teach?
vendor? mm good money though, but will i like it?
i remember what i wanted was to become a clinician, advanced practice nurse...
but in Singapore they are not recognized. not only that,
you need be to BONDED even if u can afford the school fees.
-.-"
i should start praying and praying and look for e next step.
this is my short term goal.
my long term goal?
hehehehehe
Friday, September 21, 2012 @ 11:44 PM
po-li-tics
sometimes i wonder am i caught up into my ward politics.
it's really tired to work and trying to watch your back.
at times i do thought of breaking my bond with my savings
and just go somewhere else.
on my way home, i realized trust became an issue in the ward.
who can i really just trust and speak freely too?
thank God i have Wenya.
sometimes you think that you're good with this person
then all of the sudden she doesn't talk to you as usual
she seems to ignore you, it seems like we had a grudge between us.
sometimes this person just became all of the sudden quiet
then when another person appear, she became all chatty again.
sometimes you don't want to be involved or talk to this person
but she keeps coming to you, telling you "gossips"
about the ones you're closer with in the ward
or about yourself, and pretty much get affected
and do not know how to response.
its really very scary to work in such a place...
and tiring.
high turnover rate, verbally abused by family members
and we gotta suck them all up
audits, statistics, school, projects, exams
work, isn't a happy place,
work, became a chore,
nursing, losing passion.
Friday, September 14, 2012 @ 12:34 AM
losing peace, losing patience
i am indeed losing patience.
i realised i'm easily irritated by family members
and have been giving attitude to them.
however, thank God i didn't compromise my care towards patient because of them.
felt insulted by the family at times.
felt irritated by them when they are around.
they are just hindering us nurses to work.
nurses studied so much, from dip to adv dip to degree
and family said "better clean properly ah" , "you better be careful with him ah"
get lost, we know our work.
sometimes i feel like scolding the family,
like.. "since u care about ur love one so much, y don't you put the blanket for him."
"since you care so much, why don't you bring him to the hospital early?"
"since you care so much, why don't you stop talking to me and let me do my work and care for your love one"
ta han, ta han.. 1 more year gabby!!
