Sunday, January 27, 2013 @ 10:44 PM
Family reunion.
Everytime CNY since 3 years back hasn't been a nice one.. That somehow i'm glad i can use work as an excuse.
Went to kenneth's family reunion dinner today, and it was very fun. It warms my heart to see how e family chats and laugh.. They all seems so real.
On e way back home, i've been thinking abt my own family... Are we gg to have a gathering like 3 years ago? Where all of us gather and queuing up to get hongbaos. Where all of us wrap po piah,
Where we cousins play cards and games, laugh at stupid dramas, chit chats..
Back then it was so heartwarming. Every chinese new year now i really hope for a reunion.. But for 3 yrs already it didnt happen. I really miss and want to have my family back again..
Back home from e lunch, into e empty hse.. I tot i was used to it.. But wasnt really . Sundays used to be church and family gathering at ah ma hse till late night for the past 21 yrs.. Today i finally get a sunday.. And for many sundays i didnt stay at home before until today.. Which brings back all e memories i had..
Maybe its time to get used to it, or just work on sundays..
So dread abt CNY this year..
(T.T)
@ 6:52 PM
it took me 1 month plus for a sunday off!
went to K's family reunion dinner and head off home to rest.
felt really really tired... slept awhile and couldnt sleep after that.
because...
I THEN REALISED THAT THIS SUNDAY OFF IS HARD TO COME BY...
ahhahha! got a lil stubborn, refused to sleep
so thought of doing my research critique and abit of planning for e bangkok trip.
which i felt super upset thenafter..
the rain~ the dark sky~
how much i've longed for a sunday off, and YET i'm spending it this wayy??!??!
NOOOO WAYY!! so, picked up the phone
called my best neighbour in town SHARON!
awesome! love her max!
we're gg to chill laters on at Hatch (HV)
though over eggs not alcohol
but damn happy can?!!!
hahaha!!
Friday, January 18, 2013 @ 10:53 PM
Does it matter? Part 2
Chatted w Dr V after work awhile ago.. We're talking about religion again. This time he didnt challenge me abt bible knowledge nor did he try to question me is God real.. But he asked abt my faith in Christ...
It started off from a patient's wife who has been very faithful, trusting and having hope in Christ that her very sick, who is medically impossible to go back to his normal life will walk out of e ICU alive.
Honestly, i was skeptical abt her faith.. Because e patient have never improve and is deteriorating every single day.. He has been with us for a month plus.
Dr V asked me many qns about basic christian faith that i can't even ans. I told him that i have heard these in bible lessons just that i can't remember. Then he said.. Its not about remembering but being convinced.
He then told me about a yoke matching relationship. And asked if im in it. I told h that i'm trying to bring my boyfriend yo christ.. Then he said something that hits me.. He asked, "are u bringing ur bf to christ because u want him to be with you forever.. But are e both have yoke matched?" Meaning so long both of u sees e light and run towards God together, the yoke is matched and wont' be led astray, however if 1 is matched and one is not.. U will be led astray, easily tempted.. And whether ur boyfriend runs to God or not it doesnt matter to you because e credit doesnt belongs to u.. It is by Grace he is saved. But are u running together.? " i find excuses and tell him that because of work i cant go to church etc.. He said "does it matter? It doesnt"
It hit me hard because i've been having blind faith.. "Its like a marriage... U know ur husband will love u forever then u go out with other guys, feel guilty but u know u're husband love u forever..and u will keep doing it.. It ur relationship matters to u.. Will u do this? If God matters to u.. Does it matter that u have work, u're tired.. ?"
then the last question.. are you God-centered or Self-centered?
Wednesday, January 02, 2013 @ 10:10 PM
and today, let bygones be bygones
having some mixed feelings today
feeling tired, restless, emotional, sad, moody
probably aggravated by my monthly cycle with 8 days of heavy duties
chanced upon kenneth's ex girlfriend photo on his computer yesterday while browsing
felt sour for sure, but i didn't expect myself to harp on it, well... any other girls will be the same i supposed, and it will soon go off.
went out chilling with wenya, lingling and linna today
we talked about work and people,
shared about our past experiences
and i realised that the talks about patient isn't as much as before
but talks about colleagues and standards was just depressing.
lingling finally told me about y lua suddenly turned hostile to me before she left.
lua had high expectations of me but i disappointed her by having patient compromised.
having said that, i really thought through and through and i know at times, patient care was compromised by me.
i have to learn to let go, let bygones be bygones
and change for the better.
i need to be reminded, i need some motivation!!
rarhh!
